Lessons learned...

I have learned this week not to take the early bus to work.  All the kids are on and decide three seats for one person to nap is perfectly acceptable when it is standing room only.  In addition, they arent about to take their backpack out of the seat next to them so you can sit.  Ugh.  I heavent been myself at work for a bit.  Irritated, down trodden, hopeless.  That makes me nervous for next weeks qa scores.

in But the good, I am an ambassador for Dress for Success this year.  We had fittings for the upcoming photo shoot.  As much as Imhate fashion and clothes, it was fun.  I think I tried on more outfits than I have for a whole year.  Work dress is casual, but the co-ordinator set me straight on not doing this unless I want to accept where I am in my “career”.  I have lost a lot of weight since my last fitting and wardrobe set up and guess what?  Yes, she set me up with a new professional wardrobe!  I mobed all the business clothes to the center of my closet so those jeans wont tempt me.  Ive even set up my outfits for the week including, get this, jewelry!  I am really excited, re-energized and ready to slay this job!  It is a stepping stone for me, but still!  Now I just need to get a new do to go with the new me.  It is amazing what feeling put together can do for your confidence!

I still need to make doctor appt.  The hair is starting to thin due to no thyroid meds.  Going to try and borrow the boys laptop today to get that done.  Preferably before I go bald.  I got the boy a desk and chair for an early birthday present.  We got the chair put togetherr and I think we are tackling the desk today.  I know he will be so happy to have an actual desk.  Things have been better with him this week.  He got a new job he starts on the 15th.  It is a call center and he is in denial of the hell it will be.  I will keep my fingers crossed for him.

Over all, it has been a good couple of weeks.  I am hopeful and feeling positive about this next week!

Getting it right...

I am an intorverted extrovert, or maybe I am a messed up extrovert.  I have social anxiety and a nice handful of other issues.  But I am also one of the most loyal, giving, loving people you will meet.  I have spent the years since my daughters death isolating myself.  I have tried to dip my toes out, but dang people are not what they used to be and like a turtle I duck back in.  I am going to work on that this year.  It is time for change, in me, in my relationships.  I have a love/hate difficult relationship with my son, an amazing relationship with my mom. I work in a call center and Lord have mercy that is worse than high school.  I have a love/hate relationship with fashion.  That journey will most likely be hilarious.  I have 2 furbabies, Tigger and Sheba of the feline variety.  They are my joy and my loves.  I transplanted from Texas to ulstate New York 4 years ago after a divorce.  It is still a shock I am recuperating/adjusting to (the move, not the divorce).  I dont know how this journey will go, I know where I want it to end, but it is probably going to be a wild ride.  Come along for the ride, there will be some laughs, heartache and a place to empathize and relate.